Lost in Thought

I am a little lost in thought right now. Not anything too major stuck on my mind. The main thing is that I love my family. I love the little boy sleeping on the bedroom floor of the girls room, because he didn't want to sleep in his own room. So much so that when he gave so many problems going to sleep tonight, that made me want to pull out a few hairs in the process. I love my space cadet oldest, who gets so lost in her books like I do that she forgets to listen to the other things that are happening in the real world around her. I love my screaming monkey! The child that screams when she doesn't get her way, and is SLOWLY learning that I'm not playing that game any more. I love my husband who just wanted to watch TV with me tonight but realizing how much lost in thought that I am right now was nice enough not to point it out, and just smiled and nodded when I asked him if I was a prickly pear tonight. I love all of my family and am so very grateful for them. I'm realizing how changing life is, and when things you don't expect come up around the corner. You would think I would truly get that by now with how many shifts I have made as a part of living in my short adult life. I watch as people I associate with, care for, and wish the best for start going through difficult times in their lives. I know the pain of uncertainty in ones life quite personally and don't wish it on any one. Sometimes things are affected by other actions or decisions, or just plain and simply just happen, and could not be prevented, but just dealt with. So I feel this pit in my stomach fall deeper as I simply taste the trial they are going through in their lives. To be honest, I wouldn't want what they go through, and I'm not sure that I would want to take it away from them either. I know that they will become stronger some how despite of it. I still simply taste their pain on their countenance's. I know the actions, of repetition and pushing through when all you want to do is simply break down and be done with everything. So, because I know, I push on and pray for them, as so many did for me. Its hard to think that sometimes things in this short existence are simply there, and to be pushed through, not to break us, but to make us be able to weather and understand so much more. I truly hope that I do understand more than I did before all the frustrations in my own life. I will definitely count my empathy so much higher. I will count that as something learned! So here is to my tired ramblings coming to an end for the night. Slightly thinking that perhaps like blogging under the influence, I shouldn't blog when tired. :)